"first she is not my real sister..she is my stepsister.. and second she can do anythig if she just want to... sometimes i wish she were...i dont want to say it but.. i wish she were die in this accident.. i cant take it anymore!" i said

I was kind of shocked and looked in his eyes.
"What did jenna do to u Toby?" i asked

"let's say that she made me to do alot of things..." i raised my head and look at her "even some kind of things that i just cant believed i did"

I reached out to touch his cheek
"What happened to u Toby?" i said worried and caressed his cheek

"it's not what happened..it's what i did..." i almost cry..but i stped myself..."i...i...i.."

"What did u do Toby ? i asked taking his face in my hands

she was so nice to me...
"i...she...i mean jenna...she....mada me have....have... sex with her and she told me that if i wont... somethig bad will happen to me.. really bad..." i couldn't hold it more.. the tears just fall from my eyes..

"Oh my god Toby..." i said. And didnt know what to do.
At first I touched his face and then i hugged him.
"Shhh" i said calming

"you r so nice to my and i even don't know why.. i am a freak!! i am the worst thing you can ever amagine!"
i raised my head...we were so closed to each other... i wanted to kiss her.. but then i thought... she deserve better not freak like me...

"Everything that happened wasnt ur fault toby. It wasnt..." i took his face in my hands and made him look at me.
"Did u understand that? U r not a freak because people make u do things u dont want to do " i said.
Then i kissed his cheek.
"Dont say that u r a freak ever again"

"why r u so nuce to me?..i mean.. look at me..."

"When i look at u I see a person. I just see a person who got really hurt. And feels pain now " i said caressing his cheek again
"And if i look at me i see a person to. A person that feels. And u feel too. U feel pain at the moment but there are also other feelings u can get. the two of us are feeling people so why shouldnt i care and be nice?" i asked with a little smile on my face

"cuz no one being nice to someone like me... even not the people that is the most closed to me.. when people see me walking they are going to the other sidewalk like i'm some kind of a disease...so.. do stil think that i'm a person? that is the way people need to act when they see a pearson?! this is the way that people act when they see a monster! monster like me!"

"NO!" i said resolute "U are not a monster toby " i hugged him again "Please dont say something like that. People are stupid. They don't know anything " i was still hugging him. Hoping that he would stop hating himself

"thenk you... " i said while she hugging me... i falt so peaceful in her arms..."you are an amazing person... i'm really hoped to feel that kind of feeling from someone..."